Birthday Wishes

My niece turns 3 today,  and I am angry.

I am angry that her dad is not here to be a part of the celebration. 

I am angry that her dad won't be here to read her stories at night.

I am angry that her mom is left to plan the rest of her birthday celebrations by herself.

I am angry that my niece won't remember her Daddy.

and.........

I am angry at her Dad.  

Her Dad had a disease that slowly took him away from his family.  

He had a stinking Dis Ease that did not allow him to see that he had choices.  

He thought the only way  out was to take his life.

I am angry that the medical professional did not know how to help him.

I wish he was here to be a Daddy to his little girl.

I wish he was here to say Happy Birthday.

I wish he was here to tuck her in and kiss her good night.

I wish he knew there was another answer.