I Couldn't Help It--I Wish I Had....

Meg asked if she could trust me with something...... I said yes..

She said " You can't tell anyone! Promise?"

I should have said no.. but I didn't.

I couldn't help myself--I WANTED to know.

Meg said again " You can't tell anyone... ANYONE!!!!!  No One Else Knows!"

I said " You can trust me."

What I SHOULD have said is--" Don't tell me!  I don't want to know--don't need to know!

But I didn't ....

No one else knew--I had to know!!!!

and then she told me.

Now I wish Ihad been stronger.

It's gossip --total gossip--gossip that no one else knows. 

I have a weakness for gossip--I wish I could say I was better than that---

But ... I am not....  I am weak......

So Meg told me........

Now my opinion of someone has TOTALLY changed.

Someone I thought I knew --suddenly disappeared as the words came out of her mouth.

Someone I had know for 5 years. Someone I respected. Someone I thought would never be one of " those"... became one of " Those".

If it had happen one time --I might have said it was just a mistake.

It didn't happen once--it happened all summer.

It explains so much...  

 *his nervousness

*his restlessness

*his saying" Things are crazy here--you don't know how crazy."

*the moving of his assistant to another department --and why she was soooo upset!

*why they are always bickering!

I thought I knew him.  

I should have said no.

This Moment

I feel a change --but I am not there yet.

I see what I need to do and I am taking baby steps. It is starting to get done.

I know what I want but I am still tired, overwhelmed, exhausted.

I am trying to be kind to myself.

I am trying to take it a baby step at a time.

I have use this tool before and I know it works.

I am impatience......

I feel a change, I see the change.  I just have to trudge up the mountain to get it.

One step at a time.

Can you Guess What This Is?

Need a hint?

Anyone for a sleepover?

Running Away

hubby and I are running away for the weekend.

We are doing a Valentines, birthday, anniversary, oh yea that's why I married you weekend!

I am excited!

The Perfect Food?

I am trying to get us to eat healthier.

I am cutting out trans fats, enriched flour and high fructose corn syrup.

I was looking for a "snack" for the sleepover.

I pick up a bag of Cheese curls.

No enriched flour, no corn syrup no trans fat!

Could this be the perfect healthy snack?

Sleepover

The kids are having a sleepover. 

Each of them invited a friend.

I decided to try a new idea for dessert--Chocolate Fondue.

Very easy--went over well--and they ate fruit!

Here is the recipe

1 --16 ounce package of chocolate chips

1 cup of store bought caramel sauce

1/2 cup of milk

Melt chocolate in double boiler / microwave--stirring every 30 seconds.

Stir in caramel and milk until smooth.

Dippers suggestions:

pineapple, grapes, strawberries, graham crackers, potato chips, cake, marshmallows

Happy dipping

Twenty Years Ago #2

Twenty years ago today Hubby proposed.

A limo picked me up at my apartment. Hubby was stressed. The limo was over an hour late.

On the way to the restaurant, where we had our first date, he proposed.

He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.

He gave a ring that was made up of three beautiful diamonds that came from his Grandmother.

The night was magical and more than I could have ever imagine.

And here it is 20 years later.

Twenty Years Ago

Twenty years ago I was dating a guy who I knew from high school.

We started dating in college.
One night he looked at me and I saw something different. He pulled me close, kissed me and my knees went weak and I couldn't breath.

That was the start of an on again/off again, six year relationship.

Twenty years ago we were back together after being apart for almost a year.
Every day that we were apart, I thought about him,wondered about him.

We got together right after Christmas.
This time it felt different. It felt right.

Twenty years ago was the last time I wonder what is going to happen to us.
Because 20 years ago tomorrow he proposed.

Not the Best Plan

Last night I let the puppy out to do her business.

I was being lazy and thought I would let her out and she would come back in.
She had done it before and I was confident she would do it again.

After about five minutes I called her--nothing.
I got a bone and bang it on the slider--that always works.
Nothing

I called again. Nothing.

Did I mention that our house is on 6 acres of woods and that there are wild animals ( bears, moose, bobcats, fisher cats) in the woods?

I called again. Nothing.

I got my coat on and walked outside.
I couldn't see anything in the woods.

I called again. Nothing.
Now the kids are up and getting nervous--Hubby was not home.

Daughter gets a flashlight and helps me look.
Son is sitting by the door crying.

I am thinking--" Great we get a puppy because we have had so many deaths and now the puppy is going to be eaten by wild animals--no trama here!"

Suddenly I hear something.
I call again.

I hear it again.
I call.

Out from the woods emerges a wet puppy.

I bring her in. I pick her up--I put her down--She is COVERED in smelly poop!!!!!!

Bath time!!

This morning I take her out --on her leash.
It is 5:30--still dark.

I hear a sound--I wait.....listen....

Coyotes .......they are howling.

100 Days

Today is the 100th day of school.

Son had to make a project with a 100 objects on it.

He drew a cake with 100 candles.

Personally I think they should celebrate 90 days.

You know the half way point...

We are on the downward slope.

The end is closer than the start point...

Ah.. ok...like I was saying

It has been a long winter ......

Today is the 100th day.

Facebook

I have discovered Facebook.

Six people asked me to join so I finally did.

Hubby showed me how to download the ap on my phone.

Everyone says it is addictive.

I don't know what they mean--

I have only check  it 25 times today.

Kindof Cute

The elementary school had a Valentine's dance Saturday night.
Son really wanted to go.

Right before he left with Hubby, a he HAD to call his buddy.
No answer, he left a message--Urgent call back.

He told me if his buddy calls have him call Daddy's cell.

His Buddy called last night.

Son went into the other room.
In between the whispers I heard
" She wasn't there. What do I do next? Can you help me?"

8 Year old crushes--aren't they cute!

Everyone Needs a Cerji

I have been overwhelmed with trying to deal all the stuff from Hubby's dad's house.

There are bags of stuff.

Stuff we need to sort, stuff we need to file, stuff we need to chuck, stuff we need to find places for.

He was a bachelor for 20 years and I don't think he cleaned his house in over 10.

I have attempted to start.

I go in, look,  pick up something and walk out.

It is frustrating.

We had just finished painting the front room.

It was going to a yoga/ guest room.

Now is is full of Joe's stuff.

I don't know where to begin.

I was describing this to a friend and she got all excited.

"You need Cerji!"

A friend of hers is starting a home organization business.

I called her and she came over today.

She starts a week from Monday!

YIPPEE!!!!!

I am actually excited about this project.

Feeling Old!!!

Through a series of events, I have gotten in touch with a few classmates from High School.

I haven't heard from them in years!!!

One of them emailed to let me know that his oldest son was expecting a child in a few months.

That means he will be a Grandfather!!

How can this be happening!!

No one from my graduation class is old enough to be a Grandparent!

Hey wait a minute........

Hubby and I are this child's God parents!!!

Does that mean we are Grand God parents?!!!!!!!!

February

You know it is February because the stores are full of pinks and reds.

You know it February because Victoria Secret ads are everywhere.

You know it is February because a snow day is not a big deal any more.

You know it is February because 4 inches of snow doesn't seem like a lot.

You know it is February because 20 degrees seems like a hear wave.

You know it is February because none of the mittens match anymore.

You know it February because jewelry ads are everywhere.

You know it is February because you see pictures of Washington and Lincoln everywhere.

You know it is February because you hear that cherry tree story again.

You know it is February because  you are sick of the winter!!

Thank Goodness February is a short month!

I'll Try It

Son was better this weekend .

Sent him to school and then at 10--call from his school.

He is sick again.

Time to call the doctor.

The doctor said it it is the tail end of the flu.

His intestines are irritated and the bland diet is not helping.

Feed him small meals with fat--yes fats.

Cheese, peanutbutter, chips--yes chips.

I'll give it a try.

At this point I will try Anything!

Side note

The dog is now throwing up!!!!

Ground Hogs Day

Happy Ground Hogs Day.

I hope Phil doesn't see his shadow---I have had enough of the winter!!

I am dreaming of lying on my deck, listening to the kids play in the pool!